Friday, September 5, 2008

i really do not wanna hurt any ones feeling and im sked to make the biggest decision... i do not wanna lose a friend and it is hard... if i follow this i might cant see them and if i choose that i will lose a lot of frens who i juz meet.... y is this so hard?????

deep in me i always said that im juz a follower and not a leader of something.... i juz don get it y there is such thing in life.... how i wish i could turn back time and be happy forever at that moment where everything is one.... but is seems separation have to occur and i have to choose.... but by doin this don u guys think it will hurt ones heart???

and i don feel like doin it... y am i born to be a human???? humans have the biggest challenge to go through.... i wanna grow but it seems in some condition i prefer to be a free thinker... how i wish i was that... do not wanna bother bout everything but all this that im thinking is a sin...

i need to be brave and be faithful in the word of god... not only word but be faithful in him and myself... oh god pls help me.... pls help this child of yours....

i don wanna go through it anymore!!!!! is really hard and i do not wanna do this too.... im hating it god... =(

i do have the heart to serve u... and i do not wanna choose based on humans... like wat u said in galations 1:10... am i now using arguments to men, or God? or it is with my desire to give men plessure? if i was still pleasing men, i would not be a servant of christ...

it is already stateted in the bible.... and i do not wanna pleased men.... i wanna be free!!!!!



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